They Will Always Exist
I think I have a very heightened awareness of feelings. I can feel people's feelings for myself. Some call this empathy...I just call it experience. I think that I know what a lot of pain feels like. I know what it feels like to have no one there...or think you have no one there when you really do. I know the feeling of putting on a brave face and saying everything is going well, but crying until your stomach hurts when you get to be alone. I also know the feeling of not wanting to ask for help, or being upset that no one apparently sees you. I just know. I have a lot of experience with a lot of different feelings and that is because I let myself feel them. Now I can say all of these things and I can genuinely understand those deep and dark and truthfully exhausting feelings, but I cannot fix them. I don't have the power to snap my fingers (omg Thanos again wow) and make them go away. (Boy, I wish I did though...I would b...